Tuesday, December 05, 2006

One Holiday Down, One to go

Hello, and Happy Holidays to you all!
Apologies, again, for my recent absence.
Life is FABULOUS! The engagement is official, and the holidays have emerged on us like a lion.
We are anxiously awaiting the arrival of my new cousin, he should be landing on earth this Saturday!!!!
Thanksgiving was, well, it just was. It was ok, no fights, only a few slaps in the face with words. We survived.

This is always a hard time of year for me. I have to keep reminding myself that people, although good hearted, can be VERY selfish. Mom didn't react well to my engagement, no surprise. The Christmas plans are gearing up, what does this have to do with mom? Well, Christmas Day is ALWAYS a difficult one. She tends to hook my anxiety with her selfishness. He reasons for selfishness will be absent this year...until I ask that my fiance's father join us for the festivities. See, she thinks that Christmas at my Grandmother's house is hers. Like the day should be all about her. I, on the other hand, would be perfectly content spending the day at a soup kitchen or with a family that is less privileged than mine. So, what are my true thoughts on all of this? Well, I am gaining ground in the world of "I don't need your approval". Not just my mother's approval, but anyone's. I need God's approval. The song that makes so much sense to me says "this journey is my own". When the day comes, I will be standing before the Lord, alone. What an amazing thought!

As we embark on this wonderful season, I pray for all of the world, that we can remember the TRUE meaning of the season. I look forward to my Christmas morning prayer time!

My Christmas present, Therapist has given us her blessing of good mental health and good relationship tools. Our next appointment....is not until we need it!