Sunday, January 08, 2006

Let's Start at the Very Beginning

Where to start? Well, I am a 30 year old, divorced, designer who runs at 9o miles an hour at all times. For all intensive purposes, let's call me Melissa. I am starting this in an effort to clear my mind, and maybe share some lessons and laughs with anyone who cares. I have tried the written journal approach to expression, and find it boring and lackluster. So, here I am.

First, let's talk about the people that might be interested in reading this so as not to waste anyone's time. I would consider myself "normal" (although many people in my life might disagree with that). If you have been cheated on, heard the ticking of the proverbial clock, found yourself lost from God, sacrificed your priorities for the sake of not being alone, had a crazy relationship with your mother (mine will NEVER know about this), and all the while still have faith that the "Fairytale Life" is not only possible, but deserved, then welcome to my world. I am an eternal optimist, my glass is always half-full, and there is not a problem in the world that a long drive in a convertible and a conversation with God that can't be overcome. If any of this relates to your life, please visit often. I make no promises as to anything you might learn, but finding out that you (and I, for that matter) aren't alone in this boat with many holes.

I look forward to this new journey of self-expression, anonominity, and hopeful feedback from perfect strangers.

The song lyrics to songs can often startle us into a surreal reality of our lives. The below is that song for me. It is a beautiful explanation of my quest of life to this point. May it provoke your thoughts, and hopefully bring you solace that there is someone out there that has been there too.

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

CHORUS
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

CHORUS

If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her (repeat)
We've never even met her

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

CHORUS
He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

I am not sure what the rules are about this kind of thing, but this song is from the Lifesong CD by Casting Crowns...a WONDERFUL, contemporary christian band.

2 Comments:

At 10:57 PM, Blogger Shannon said...

I've got your back.

 
At 8:04 AM, Blogger Fairytales and Dreams said...

Shan - YOU are a great source of strength for me. I wish I could say that somewhere other than here. I LOVE YOU BIG!!!!!
M

 

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